Mr. Vedder singing in my sleep

I love it when I get "the last good song I heard playing over and over in my head" syndrome. These last few days the song "Sitting by the dock of the bay" by Pearl Jam but the original sang by Otis Redding has been on my mind before I go to bed and when I wake up. I particularly love this part of the song:

Sitting on the dock of the bay

Watching the tide roll away

I'm just sitting on the dock of the bay

Wasting time

I left my home in Georgia

Headed for the 'Frisco bay'

Cause I had nothin to live for

And look like nothing's gonna come my way

At this point in my life, I am sitting on the dock of the bay, the dock is more like my front desk and the bay is the corporate world. I just watch my life and the people I work with like the last few minutes till recess or school being out for summer. I find I am really wasting alot of time. Lately, I have been thinking about abandoning the life I had in Bacolod*. I knew I couldnt be stuck there without a purpose i.e. opening up a business or settling with a loved one and living a care free life. The years I had invested in the land of sugar was not wasted but led me to my life here in Toronto, I met Demetrius and fell in love with him.

I find I need a change. I have gotten used to my way of life here and I do not like it. I love Toronto, its a very diverse city, but I need to be by the sea i think. I do not regret settling down and I am quite lucky my husband and I share a love for travel and would love to live in several cities. I guess Its all a matter of time. Till then I shall just sit around and wait till something exciting comes my way.

* Bacolod City- Located in the province of Negros Occidental, Philippines. The city where I was born and raised.