Dream on sweet child

I love to dream. It makes me feel powerful and creative. Lately, it hasnt been that way. I wake up drained and depressed. I dream of this guy I know who lives in the Philippines, he tortures me with romance and then something bad always happens. Last night my dream started off with a party at his parents house and I was being presented to his family and their friends as the love of his life. We ended up in his bedroom where he was ductaping his door so we could smoke a joint with one of my best friends. Everything was all about me until we were relaxing and the three of us were in his bed and he starts fooling around with both of us!! I still cannot forget that part... I was so upset and I told them both I was cutting them off and I ran out of the room and the last thing I remember was me in an S.U.V. riding shotgun while he was driving and the dream was getting creepier by the minute. We had creatures chasing us and forcing entry to the vehicle. I kept on checking if the windows were closed and the locks were activated but whatever I did it didnt work. For the past two years this man has been visiting me in my dreams. He promises me love then gives me heartache by wanting to fool around with other women. The saddest thing is that it affects me everytime.

I have spoken to a few people about this and here are some of their comments:

Abby who is of irish and german descent, works in our office, actress and folk singer extraordinaire, is a creative woman in her early 40's who understands my grief working in a non creative environment says that my dreams have nothing to do with the man involved but has to do with issues concerning myself. Issues in the sense that I feel trapped and want to move on to other things. She was right there, yesterday I was doing research on non profit organizations that I will be applying to next year and it is something I have always wanted to do but had to go through the big bad corporate world before I got to figure that I am too nice to work in a dog eat dog environment. She also stated that all the sexual tension I have in my dreams are a sign that I am able to be successful in my future endeavors. I was quite taken aback by this because I was always curious if the guy I dream about alot is actually my soulmate. This puzzles me completely because Demetrius is my soulmate, the man finishes my sentences and has the same vision of our future.

Navroz a.k.a Ashley, born in South Africa but is of indian descent, owner of an I.T. recruitment firm, and is one of my favourite people in the office says that because I never got to fool around with the "GUY" and never pursued a relationship with him, my subconscious is curious about him. She says bluntly, "you never really had him so you want him more". She also thinks I should visit her psychic psychologist to find out what the score is.

Alexandria, Italian Canadian make up artist chick who frequents our office to see one of my clients on a regular basis says that this sort of thing happens to her often and she said that 1. I am weird and 2. I should go speak to someone about it.

Hopefully someone who intreprets dreams is reading this.. What do you think?